Stumbling over your mind wondering what the fuck is going through it trying to put it together like a jig saw puzzle but fuck your train thought ill derail your vision aint shit without action fuck a hoe that tries to bring down a mood and get that shit straight don’t twist it up and get to close for comforter. Kinda funny thinking talking behind my back I wont here the whispers from street hoes and bitches and tricks now they need the bones and I serve the like a owner I think it’s safe to say I am a street cleaner and you’re a trashed out bitch trying to fight til the end but see words are emotion and that shit runs deeper than the oceans and I can’t sea you altering and disfunction is my mind keep a wishing on a star. One one with the great one that’s going against a giant but nothing holding him back now a beas fucking unleashed spitting hitting banging cocaine slangging ambien dewll on something fingers covered in sweat blood do anything to prove a point
You wanted something more something I couldn’t give you. You think this about you but it’s about her and your dreaming. Wishing on a star so far fucking it seems dark. Poppin bottles just to drown her. Kissed him with more love than she kissed you it hurt at first but then you can give a fuckless then she wanted you more seems like it’s twisted up shit but that’s how it works. They want you when you don’t want the. But now you’re to far and can give a spit and they can eat the dick. I fuckin hate that bitch I wanna kill her throw her in the ditch but nahh she aint worth two cents nor the time spent. It’s a virb destruction doing it outta frustration now your going crazy could of had it all. But times wasted and now their gone….
Don’t try to tear away someone if they don’t get to know them don’t try break up something cause you don’t want to be alone. Don’t say stuff if you can’t keep it don’t lie to make things easy. Be you not what they want. Don’t be a hypocrite.
Thing about it is when I use to cliff dive I realized the risk is always worth the fall. Sometimes it hurts but always worth it. Second when guys are with girls girls wanna get with guys and when a guy finds out about a girl getting hurt or lonely it’s like wolfs smells blood they gather around waiting for the right moment to strike and hope to get something like I always tell everyone. It’s hard oh yeah they will try make you feel not bad and relate. Follow the heart not other voices.
[12/21/2012 1:44:29 AM] caseymariefelicity: i really need someone to talk to, just to settle my thinking
[12:18:06 PM] Cyle Bowers: Hey
[12:18:11 PM] Cyle Bowers: What’s up?
[12:19:10 PM] caseymariefelicity: just at my parents and trying to settle my thinking..
[12:19:40 PM] Cyle Bowers: I’m sorry well you can talk to me for a little before I leave
[12:22:47 PM] caseymariefelicity: okay.
well i’m stuck here for 2 1/2 more weeks..and i’m trying not to freak out. my sister hasn’t been back in 48 hours. because she’s off doing drugs & shit and when she comes back idk if i say somehting to her or not. because she just got back from rehab from over a year and i know i did everything possible to help her and that it’s not my fault..
but how do i not say something?
my parents spent so much on her and went through so much
[12:24:21 PM] Cyle Bowers: I am soo sorry
[12:24:23 PM] Cyle Bowers: Honest
[12:24:34 PM] Cyle Bowers: Coming from a drug person who use to do it
[12:24:44 PM] Cyle Bowers: and was into alcohol
[12:24:55 PM] Cyle Bowers: I can only say she has to want to
[12:25:00 PM] Cyle Bowers: No one can force her
[12:25:27 PM] Cyle Bowers: When we come to terms we want to change we will change
[12:25:47 PM] Cyle Bowers: But til then we have to learn
[12:25:52 PM] Cyle Bowers: I know it’s hard
[12:25:57 PM] caseymariefelicity: It’s not your faults, it’s no ones and I know that..but i just i’m so pissed..She nearly caused my parents to get a divorce, tried to stab my dad, they spent 100,000 on her schooling/rehab, and this is what she does.
And she’s stealing stuff from them.
I just don’t know if can handle not saying anything..Like blowing up.
Would that be bad?
[12:26:21 PM] Cyle Bowers: But nothing you can do just show her you care
[12:26:22 PM] Cyle Bowers: Yes
[12:26:31 PM] Cyle Bowers: It willl push her to do more
[12:26:37 PM] Cyle Bowers: Instead show her you care
[12:26:41 PM] Cyle Bowers: NOT forceful
[12:26:44 PM] Cyle Bowers: Nicly
[12:26:48 PM] Cyle Bowers: Make her feel bad
[12:26:55 PM] Cyle Bowers: We have to learn
[12:27:03 PM] Cyle Bowers: Meaning kill with kindness
[12:27:16 PM] caseymariefelicity: I don’t know how else, she’s pushed me out of her life, I wrote her every week for a year..sometimes two. and i tried so hard..
[12:27:31 PM] Cyle Bowers: I know
[12:27:44 PM] Cyle Bowers: She is going through a struggle
[12:27:46 PM] Cyle Bowers: Honest
[12:27:55 PM] Cyle Bowers: EVeryday I struggle with this shi
[12:28:01 PM] Cyle Bowers: I wanna get high everyday
[12:28:04 PM] Cyle Bowers: Still do
[12:28:07 PM] Cyle Bowers: But
[12:28:09 PM] Cyle Bowers: I fight it
[12:28:15 PM] Cyle Bowers: It’s like a sickness inside
[12:28:29 PM] Cyle Bowers: You want that rush and life seems boring
[12:29:35 PM] caseymariefelicity: well i can see life being boring, right now we’re in a town of 5,000 and nothing to do. It just hurts so bad.
[12:31:10 PM] Cyle Bowers: I know
[12:31:23 PM] caseymariefelicity: I’m just so hurt.
And I just hate that my parents are in so much pain.
[12:31:27 PM] Cyle Bowers: I was popping 15 perks a day
[12:31:47 PM] Cyle Bowers: Only thing you can do
[12:31:55 PM] Cyle Bowers: Is not feed her addiction
[12:31:57 PM] Cyle Bowers: Be there
[12:32:02 PM] Cyle Bowers: Meaning ask for money
[12:32:11 PM] Cyle Bowers: So no but ill take you out for food
[12:32:21 PM] Cyle Bowers: Just say by the way I love you
[12:32:22 PM] Cyle Bowers: BUT
[12:32:30 PM] Cyle Bowers: Don’t make her addiction a okay thing
[12:32:53 PM] Cyle Bowers: Once and awhile tell her sis I love you and worry just know I am here
[12:33:00 PM] Cyle Bowers: not all the time
[12:33:08 PM] Cyle Bowers: It will feel like you’re on top her
[12:33:22 PM] Cyle Bowers: When you are a addict you wanna do it more
[12:33:32 PM] caseymariefelicity: Maybe if she’d ever talk to me.
Or come home.
Thanks, I just really needed someone elses opionion.
[12:33:48 PM] Cyle Bowers: Just let her know i a nice way
[12:33:50 PM] Cyle Bowers: You care
[12:34:16 PM] Cyle Bowers: tell her how you miss her and always how we spent time
[12:34:30 PM] Cyle Bowers: Then say I love you and I am here if you need me
[12:34:50 PM] caseymariefelicity: Thank you.
[12:34:57 PM] Cyle Bowers: No problem
[12:35:01 PM] Cyle Bowers: I am glad I can help
[12:35:15 PM] caseymariefelicity: You’re a really nice guy. I appreciatte it.
[12:35:43 PM] Cyle Bowers: Haha nahh just someone who cares and wants people happy and safe
[12:35:56 PM] caseymariefelicity: You’re nice. You didn’t have to be to me.
[12:37:28 PM] Cyle Bowers: Why not? You’re a person. I think everyone needs someone rather love or talk. Just please don’t be scared ask for my help or need talk.
I am lucky to have you I know times are hard and I know you love me and I can be pushy I am when I know what I want. But now I have to not be. I reread all the text you saying I’m yours just tuesday just need find yourself. Instead of being happy for you I wanted questions so I wasnt hurting. Now I get what you’re doing and want you know I love you miss you and I read how you say you miss me soo much and Love me soo very much. I want you know I think about you everyday and miss you. I am happy you’re finding yourself and making yourself better I was worried you’ll forget me and with joeys issues wasnt helping. I am sorry and want you know I am proud of you and here for you. I always love you and miss you and sorry for everything going on too it’s not all your fault.
Being young doens’t give you a reason to be slutty nor does it give you reason be heart broken. Don’t follow others foot steps. If you find someone who treats you good don’t go looking cause good wont always wait. Be happy cause you can loose everyone you have. When you get older and everyone starts leaving your life you start appreciating the ones you do have not worry about the ones you don’t have. People influence others so they’re not alone. Sometimes we go crazy and think wrong but if you stop for a second stop trying to move on all the time just once let the air settle maybe you’ll find yourself.
I devoted all my time my energy into this I gave you all I had down to the last drop of blood. You owe me this you can’t take away this no not today I push for this and you always push back I try to talk and I ask you what you want.
Can’t believe this shit I would have gave my heart to you all I wanted was to be told I was loved and I wasnt putting myself out there for no reason. I called on you to be there but the phone never was answered. I’m no angel but I have feelings. It’s been a whole fucking two months drug free and I sit up late at night can’t sleep waiting for a text a call something. Grab a pill bottle hands shaking just one wont hurt I tell myself.
Days grow to weeks growing weak feel like I just had my stomach ripped out my hearts getting cold. Starting hate myself can’t stand myself. Why the fuck do I stay sober Why the fuck would you ever want me. Only if you knew how much this bothers me how this isnt right yet you stand by it. Do you forget I can leave too I can go out. I don’t cause my heart still lies with you and I hope it’s same. I pray you don’t talk to any other guys.
Fuck i’m feeling distant from everyone everythings fading to grey if only I had a ounce of confidence left in me muster up something.
They told me aint shit said I wont ammount to shit call it throw the fleg better off working 9 to 5 but inside I knew shit wasnt right gathered my wit pulled out all stops passion at all time.
Everything seems so empty so lost in this fucking place my mind races to keep up I barley stay a float with my music shit I feel like I am falling off and the waters getting bad the sharks are pussies now and days not much to worry I feel no threat but I feel everyone tugging at my threades and I wanna end it but I can’t not while I have a ounce of fire call it ends and ill be doing nobody favors this game needs me do you see these wack ass motherfuckers most yelling swag skinny jeans wearing fucking faggots so when did wearing homosexual clothes became cool when did blowing your money that you didn’t have fuck I may have a grand or two but I watch it especially cause most want me off my grind so I pressure double time
Thats my kraft not mac it’s ill real ill go straight for the kill I’m a vill and there aint shit you gonna do to a man who would drive into oncoming traffic for a thrill give me a reason ill give you a milli and I wont stop there no it’s a curse it’s the way I write my verse I emerce so bast in my glory fuck the worries this is straight hip hop one on one call me the god dog cause you’ll feel my words and shake the ground wait til I come around and the beats drops hair stands up on the back of ya neck and your bones pop
phase mase cage tase fearless careless words you might wanna describe me but it’s cause yall aint me and you wanna suck me and fuck me. Fuckin hypocrites say you hate me but buy my cds and say hes gay but would still rim job me shit and all
Words spoken unwriten yet said left to be.Get me a place in this world figure out what these words mean why my mind wont stop piecing shit together why this beat cast it’s shadow my heart alone dark deep in me I see a spark but it’s out of reach I speak kind words to hope for the last ammount of respect I wanna earn mind craves you look where else for something
Yo it’s like three hours turn into three years stuck in the same spot chasing after same dreams trying to figure out a way how to make it wanting and ddebating understanding something that is nothing dont get it my minds clearer and I feel more ignitable and my mentality is in great fear of losing whats inside me eating inside out I drown in my own thoughts kill the beast leave the shell crack that you must be a nut why must you have these empty lonely thoughts.
Sit in my room and color in my books write something and shows up nblank like my ink ran out before I could come up with the first thought what the fuck is wwrong with me. I yell and no one cares so I scream and fall never even knew id be here what the fuck is going on in my sick twisted fucking mind
You: I come here to warn you about these horny lil kids
You: Trying to figure out how their dicks work
Stranger: ive always wondered… not like that ;]
You: I had this dream about fucking this girl ripping her head off while shes stil on me
You: Cutting each tit off
You: Screaming fuck you bitch now aint shit you can do
You: Punt them like a nfl punter
Stranger: ill have what ur having!!!
Stranger: was she asian?
You: She was a tranny trying to tranfer from one postions to the other started on some shit so I drug her outside cut her throat in my neighbors yard painted his house red
Stranger: better love story then twillight
Stranger: what cokkies should i make?
You: Sprinkle glitter on that homo fucked him like the bitch he is smacked his hoe ass around drove my dick into his heart stick hard bitch get a clue aint nothing stoping me from fucking all these hoes that try to convince me they’re the shit but aint nothing standing test to this wind
You: the chocolate ones it’s like the women I like a lil black here and there and you still get that white taste so it’s not all sweet gotta have that sour too
Stranger: u spitten nigga?
Stranger: I’m guessing this was your ex?
You: Yes my slutty nasty been used more than a katy perry track on the radio
Stranger: U got the shit dude
Stranger: What was her name
You: Her name wasnt what was important what was is how her pussy is like a virus that’s spreading world wide and everyone needs protection
You: Norton can’t even stop the infections she has
Stranger: fuck protection mann
Stranger: fuck bitches too
You: Go feet first so when shit goes down aint no kid involved then youll be the one fucked you stick your dick in cash comes out there goes your watches your life is now in wreckage
Stranger: ohh ok
You: Me too
You: I once fucked a tree
You: Rubbed me the wrong way after awhile
You: Ill fuck the bark off a bitch now
Stranger: yo thing get all banged up?
You: Nahhh I just dipped it inside some sleeze beg trick who liked my dick she rode that dick like it was her last ride she cam twice third one she blew her pussy out
Stranger: I can just see it now…
You: Wait is this john cena
Stranger: nah man
You: Nice to meet you
You: I wish I had a better name
You: Like mike tyson or fucking michael phillps
Stranger: Why u like mike so much?
Stranger: ear fetish?
You: Because I can rock a mic and beat the fuck outta anyone who stand toe to toe with me
My minds trapped in this wicked shit my heads in confusin of this infused world it’s miss leading all the guiding people are wiling to relesh on you. I wanna forfit this life I have. Life is a wreck I can’t seem to get outta bed people saying my lyrics wack This paycheck aint coming in
Funny when you give it all and would lay the fuck down for you give up and give in in hopes youll do the same. Open myself up and let you in for one last round. This time around would be different so I thought. Now shits not right my heads spinning and minds racing the gears are slippen. Shake radle and roll I guess thats what I get for trusting another one I guess it’s true music is the only thing that never leaves. I gave it up for you and it stayed true to me. So now I’m spilling the beans and cooking some of my most aggresive shit aggravated. Miss treat me slap me hit me burn me do what you will with me leave me out to the trash.
Skip ahead and I know things wont be the same. What do you want from me?! I gave you what you wanted never was enough for you. Helped you when no one was here to grab you when you were down. Now that I slip and fall you didn’t even look back so I should be pissed say fuck you too. Instead I plead for you to realize what I did and find it deep inside your soul and find me. I’m lost without it but I guess I keep moving on alone in this dark shallow place.
My veins running cold as ice my blood running thick I feel my writing skills start to slip I yell but aint shit hearing me. I wanted nothing but the best for you sacrifice the pawn and leave your heart on the line call it quits while the queen
My dreams are my fear my world crashes all around me the image is blurred by the past of your face I must say this is a disgrace to admit to. Cure me i’m a sick man with my last breathe imma give it and my words will echo through the hall of time fill those kidses ears and vibrate till they stick on you. Fuck the rubber we aint playing with the glue either lets cut to the chase never been one to follow the lines.
Inspired to fuckin rip this game a new ass hole. My anger is aimed directly at you. Lyrics aint shit without me behind them lie lex and those white hoes. Getting it like friday the 13th. My voice causes bitches to scream and throw shit at me. Hate me good I’m not here to make friends. Those who don’t get me wont touch me so fuck you. Eat my dust as I full throatal this verse high off life no drugs needed influinced by those who wanna start shit. Life is nuts and you’ll be sucking on these. Grab my sack and flip my middle finger to the sky and yell my name this worlds mine from day one just didn’t know it.
I know were far away everyday seems so grey feeling staring emotions high are life has always been this way weak and feeding of others needs forget about us this time I beg and plead to just not give in to hold me tight with each word I speak I mean it can’t you see it the way I stand next to you and dream about you your smile makes me fall in pieces I can’t go another day without you. This world is a dangours place. I have so much to say but such little time. Thousand years wont do it I need you for intenettee be mine til the end of time ill always be there to hold the rain back to catch the tears you cry this I wont lie I shed one or two but my heart aches for you and the feelings grow strong I need you to just be mine If anyone tries to take you away ill make them scream for their life think twice I wont roll this dice I wont fuck up not this time
Before I lay down a track my mind spins in all direction firing on all cylinders I have soo much to say andd give my game is just begun this wont see the end ill go til these arms give in and my abilities are taken away like the spirit in you my future is to fuck this world up aim my lyrics at you and inspire you kill those fake fuckers out there seek within you gather the highest power ignite the smallest fire
Okay so I been nice to you people time has come the old me is out now. These pills look soo nice from this view. Those who have shit to say about other fuck you whores come in pack like mother fuckers who can’t fight alone. If you say something again or say shit behind backs i’m burn your fucking house down everything you work toward will come down in flames fuck with sharks get bite bitch.
My words feed of emotions I know the notations success is a must this path has been a broken one aches so deep inside my soul I set fourth for my goals but I never feel whole gained the trust of you through it all my heart aches for you my words slurr when I see you i’m a mes when you no longer have my hand I can’t see as far as the eye sees I am blurred by the vision my memories have played why do they almost cost me my damn life please i’m only a man but your not listening look through the smoke it’s hard when people only see the core inside i’m dying from all the gore that has happen I digress
Clairee one day you’ll marry he’ll carry you away to a fairy tale kinda way he may fall a time or two but love never vairies
I heard we beefin I had my ears to the ground her the truth they said it sets you free but now I just fear I can’t even go a second wondering if you’ll up and leave like your shfty that’s why I trust no hoe.
It’s a start down a empty road a book left unwritten pages unfolded images still not captured in a moments time like your favorite cartoon unsketched. I look into this blind folded dark as night. Ignite this love so deep inside. Nothing insight So I for warn you if you fuck this up I wont take it lightly. My words are nothing without you behind each line. Inject me with puriest form of high moments mesured by seconds my heart stops for you each time.
I’m able no ones listening passing me by the earths spinning my life is outta control. I sacrifice everything for you let my music slip my life give in while I gave up my worlds a off tempo beat when I am around you things make no sense fear the reaper cap that shit put a block to your facebook
Never been one to take shoots less those who got it deserved it. Over taken by this corrupted society everythings so meaningless for me fire inside me. Each and everyone one of you are about to be slapped like hoes when I talked to god I asked for a sloppy joe not a sloppy hoe. Route of evil not born like this pushed til the tides were to much and the walls caved in new man was born.
Not like most my music is true. Guilty as can be. Viscious on a mic watch me live youll know. I give my all not even trying to carry a tune. Could say diamonds on a watch ride 20’s and if you stand chest to chest youll get knocked out. Stay fight for when shit gets thick.
A visionary is what ya can say about me. See past the lows saw some shit most doesnt deserve to have. Carry myself like nothing bothers me. You see happy but iside i’m dying I need resesatation. If there is a heaven I aint going wear this jesus piece to show were I stand. End is near try to secure a spot so if the fall is uncontrolable atleast know I gave it my all. Vulteres circle me waiting for me to give up find refuge under a broken hip hop. Rap and hip hop is turning into fake wanna be living.
Grab the letter A turn it into the first step of my alphibitical rap session. Ass holes wanna always get butt fucked by cyle. I just pulled a abc murder kill switch. Ditch the bitches get with a erotic sexual kinda women with many features.